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22 September 2009 @ 10:21 pm
Tristan said something to me today that really hit home.

He told me that forgiveness isn't something you do once and then it's over. You have to keep forgiving. over and over. Because when there's past resentment, something small and stupid can trigger its return. Letting go of bitterness means letting go only for the time being. Until it somehow creeps its way back in, and then you have to learn to forgive all over again.

I'm finding it hard to forgive. But I make mistakes all the time and I hope that people will forgive me.

How can I expect forgiveness from others when I am unwilling to forgive too?

So in the end, we say sorry and we keep feeling sorry. Or we forgive and we have to keep forgiving.
But I'm tired!

I want to be a better person. I am going to try and forgive more freely.
01 September 2009 @ 06:36 pm
(Dad pulls me over to the couch to sit. He looks at my head funny.)

Dad: How come your ear so small?
Me: I don't know. They've always been small.
Dad: Your ear too small.

(he looks disappointed.)

Me: What?
Dad: Long ear, Long Life!
Me: I was born this way.
(His face drops)
Dad: I'm worried...
Dad: But it's okay because you're short so proportional still long ear!

16 August 2009 @ 03:24 am
(Currently in a hotel lobby in Prague, Czech Republic on vacation with my grandma and Popo.)

Happy Story

I sat down on a bench somewhere in a touristy place outside of Prague with my Mom. I put my backpack next to me on the bench, not realizing there were other people who wanted to sit on the bench as well. When my mom alerted me to this, I looked behind me to see this really cute older couple looking for somewhere to sit. I grabbed my bag and signaled to them to take a seat on the bench with me. The woman who sat next to me was adorable. She smiled at me real big and then started thanking me in German. I pointed at her and said: "Deutsch?" and she nodded her head excitedly. She pointed at me and then I said: "American"

I couldn't speak German and she couldn't speak English. But somehow we were able to have a conversation. She pointed at the sky, then again at the ground, and furrowed her brow. I used my hands and mimicked as if to say, "airplane?" and she nodded again. I told her Hong Kong, China and then pointed at my mom and then my Popo. We went back and forth like this for several minutes. She put her arm around me and then we both started laughing. I found out she was traveling with a tour group from Germany. She has a son, a daughter, and 8 grandchildren. She had bright orange hair and wore glasses and her cheeks were pink from the heat.

Her tour group was getting together and getting ready to leave. At first she put her hand out to shake mine, but then we were both too happy and we hugged. As she was walking away she turned back around to wave at me. I blew her a kiss and then she blew one back.

Best 10-minute friendship ever. She made my week.

30 June 2009 @ 06:59 pm
30 June 2009 @ 05:56 am
A week or so ago I wrote this longass email reflecting on many of my experiences junior year. I sent it out to friends to sort of keep them updated on how life has been for me. I realize that I rarely offer you any sort of comprehensive update (without rambling) so in case you're curious about what I've been up to, here goes!

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23 June 2009 @ 05:49 pm
I've started a tumblr!!!!! let me know if you have one too! I feel this need to post ridiculous fangirly stuff. And LJ won't let me cross-post from tumblr to LJ. *pissed*

1. Women are Ruining Sex for Gay Guys
BWAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please read this. It's so funny. I love it.

2. Kylie chats about US tour
AP: What can fans expect?
Minogue: I’m sure most people who will come to see the show will know of my work so we’re hoping to do like a “best of” different tours that I’ve done. There’s nothing like being in same room with your peeps, you know. I only started saying “peeps” because I’m in America (laughs). And that’s when you really feel that connection and get to see what works and there’s nothing else like that.
KYLIE You're ADORABLE. I want to hear you say "peeps."
AHHHH I CAN'T WAIT!! We're Gonna See her in OAKLAND!!! AHHHH!!! SO EXCITED!!!!!

3. Kylie's BF, Andres Velencoso poses for Out Magazine
She has good taste.

mmmmmmmYUM. Spanish model goodness. Kylie deserves the best.

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I have a hero. Her name is Judith Mackay.

Reasons why she's a big deal:
1. She is widely recognized for single-handedly waking up Asia to the tobacco epidemic, founding the Asian Consultancy on Tobacco Control, the first of its kind in the continent.
2. She was named as one of the three most dangerous people by the tobacco industry.
3. She was chief architect of the World Health Organization’s (WHO) Framework Convention on Tobacco Control, the world's first public health treaty.
4. She wrote The Tobacco Atlas.
5. She was awarded with the British Medical Journal's first Lifetime Achievement Award.
6. She was named as one of TIME magazine's 100 People Who Shape Our World

Basically she is the most badass advocate ever. And she's British!  and a woman! and she lives in Hong Kong! She did some crazy, controversial stuff at a time when it was extremely unpopular. She used her charm and her intelligence to make things happen in the face of mounting pressure from the tobacco industry, the Chinese government, and death threats from pro-smoking groups.

Spring quarter I took an AMAZING anthropology class about tobacco. Among the guests brought into our class were Tom Glynn, Director of International Cancer Control at the American Cancer Society, and Sarah Lawrence, head of the Campaign for Tobacco-Free Kids in China. I ran into Tom Glynn at a couple of speaker series and I asked if he would meet with me sometime. I wanted to find out more about his work. We met, talked, and I told him I was heading to Hong Kong this summer and that I was hoping to meet with tobacco control people in HK. (Hong Kong is largely recognized as a success story in East Asia in terms of tobacco control. Mostly because of Judith Mackay.) He said he'd be willing to put me in touch with people he knew in HK, including Dr. Mackay. After that lunch meeting with Tom Glynn, I was beaming with joy.

It was a longshot, but he gave me her email address and I sent her this message:

Dear Dr. Mackay,

I recently met with Tom Glynn, who suggested I contact you. My name is Jamie, I'm an undergraduate at Stanford University and a student of Matthew Kohrman's, whose seminar entitled "The Anthropology of Annihilation: Tobacco at the Turn of the 21st Century" introduced me to his research on tobacco and China. I am passionate about tobacco control and the smoke-free movement (I've been involved in tobacco control advocacy efforts at Stanford -spearheading the campaign for a smoke-free campus policy, and through the American Cancer Society). I met Susan Lawrence while she was on-campus to speak as part of a colloquium series on tobacco control in East Asia. I have been working together with Matthew Kohrman, Robert Proctor, and Steve Fortmann at the Stanford Global Tobacco Prevention Research Initiative.

I'd like to find out more about what work is being done and more about where the movement is heading in Hong Kong. I will be in Hong Kong from June 27-August 26. This is a strong personal and intellectual interest of mine, and if you're available, I would love to meet with you and learn more. However, I understand that you're very busy. If you could direct me to others in Hong Kong I could contact, that'd be helpful as well. I'm also considering relocating to Hong Kong postgraduate to research tobacco use and tobacco control in the city. Thanks so much for your time! Any response would be greatly appreciated.



Dear Jamie,

Thank you very much for your letter.  All the people with whom you have been working or have contact are the best in their field, and this should get you off to a good start!

Unfortunately, I [...] will not be in HK when you are here.

I suggest you contact the following: [lists out contacts in HK]

Hope this helps, and below is summary of HK


and then she provided me with TONS of information, a timeline of the progress that's been made in HK, etc

I'm so happy that she emailed me back!! Even though I'm disappointed that I won't be able to meet her. I'm ecstatic that she took the time to respond to my message and provide me with information/contacts. Note! she signed, Judith. :D :D :D 

My reply:

Thank you so much for your response!! The timeline and data you provided were spot on! I've gone ahead and contacted the people you suggested. This was enormously helpful.

Best of luck to you while you're on leave. I sincerely hope our paths cross at some point in the future, as I'm a huge admirer of your work.

Thanks again,

I want to be that badass someday.




I'm feelin: bouncybouncy
20 June 2009 @ 02:37 am
Dear LJ Friends,

I've done a horrible job keeping you updated on my life plans. one thing I haven't mentioned is that I'll be in Hong Kong this summer from June 28th-August 26th. My goals are to 1) Learn Cantonese, 2) Spend time with my Popo, and 3) Explore my heritage/Hong Kong/etc.

I guess this is the equivalent of a study abroad-type experience. But I really don't think of it that way. Since my reason for going overseas isn't to "study abroad", but rather to rediscover family and also myself, albeit in an "abroad"-type way. Fall quarter my grandma on my dad's side (my yinyin) passed away. She spoke a dialect of Cantonese that I never really understood called Toisan. I loved her very much but I didn't know her as well as I wanted to. Anyways, all of this made me realize that I only have one grandparent left. My Popo (maternal grandmother) is my only link to that generation and I'm ashamed to say that I'm unable to have real conversations with her beyond go-to topics like food and school. Fall/winter quarter I applied to a language study fellowship through the Center for East Asian Studies at Stanford and I got it :) So the first half of my trip will be devoted to studying Cantonese at the Chinese University of Hong Kong. It's a study abroad program, so there'll be travelling and exploring and group tours with other students. The second half of my trip I'll be living with Popo.

I'm creating a travel blog for public/parental viewing which you can view here <3 Isn't it pretty?

I know...betrayal. I'm using wordpress and not livejournal for this blog. Well, wordpress lets me post entire picture galleries without doing anything weird like using photobucket or paying for an account with storage space. Rest assured, I'll always be an LJ-er at heart. My friendspage is everything to me.

The hong kong travel blog will have updates and lots of pictures. I'm reserving LJ for what I usually use it for: bitching, gossiping, saying what i really mean, going deep, and all the random-ing that I'll still need to do while overseas. I might be too lazy to cross-post everything from wordpress to LJ. but whatever, we'll see.

Love Always,

I'm feelin: calmcalm
13 June 2009 @ 04:03 pm
HOLY SHIT!!!! This WHOLE TIME my friend Hani has been writing, recording, and producing an album. I've known her since Summer of 2007 and we've been hangin out and without me knowing she goes and makes an album!! MEANWHILE she has all this talent!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1



Click this shit==>
Hani - Dead Radio
I'm listenin to: Three Strikes - Hani
06 June 2009 @ 02:20 am
I love my friends so much. I'd die without them. And now half of them are leaving.

All I want is to hold on to people.

Too many important, wonderful people in my life.

How can I hold onto them?

and Why are we studying?

Stay with me.